He said it

Once again, it was the guy dat said it. As usual, I never have any options in the decisions. 5 times it has always been in these case. Once again, the words cut deep.

I ought to be strong, i told myself. But it din have much effect on me. The things we went through, the happiness, the caring smiles, the laughters, the thrilling adventures keep ringing and ringing in my head. The disappointment came. Why is he so particular abt the fact that I have withdrawn the $$ ? The fact that it has already been withdrawn n its still with me till tis very day dat I have not spent a single cent just goes to tell that I am serious about our future. Dead serious. The fact that I changed myself to stop spending as much already said something abt my determination to put the past behind n adopt a new lifestyle of savings.

Yet, to him, spending on this trip is unforgivable. Even though for the fact that I just wanted to take care of him when he is alone. My heart breaks when he told me he din need it at all. Little did he understand that the fact that he matters to me is more impt than $$ itself. $$ can always be earned again. But if i heard that he is alone here and i din care, den thats gotta be something wrong wif me.

Anyway, he didnt choose to listen.. He has made the decision... Though Im just praying for another chance to do all these over again.. The tears rolled down profusely.. But i know... I still ought to be strong...