A day of intermittent rain and sunshine... Hmm.. Does not help in my recovery... Got sick yesterday but still gave my last ounce of energy on badminton. Afterwhich, my whole body starts to protest loudly esp my throat. I went and see a doc last nite to get my mc for today. However, the medicine he gave seem to make me even worse then before. My throat is so dry that it croaks and it seem to be on fire.
Nevertheless, its still a good day for resting at home. Decided to pack up the remaining memories I had and secured it. Im feeling good to get on with my life. Whatever remaining memories will be kept away and stored. Hmm... the feeling of no longer dwelling in the past seems good.
This sat is my final theory. I just do pray that I will be able to pass it with just a try. Afterwhich, I will concentrate and get my licence. It sure feels good to hav targets in life. Praise the Lord !
A crazy little gurl who is also a believer of the Love of God... A little extremist, emotional and neurotic at times...But overall still a simple gurl who seeks simple things in life.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Monday, May 21, 2007
Drained
Monday nite after work... Im feeling emotionally and mentally tired... The past haunted me again and it is simply just so emotionally draining. All these months of putting on a strong front has really crumbled me mentally. I know im emotionally weak and there are times I may just seem unreasonable. Well, none of it really matters from now on. I am going to come out from the past and not dwell on the past 2 yrs. For it is a gone issue...
Jesus, I prayed dat U will give me strength to stand strong and mighty to embrace the new life U will give me.
Jesus, I prayed dat U will give me strength to stand strong and mighty to embrace the new life U will give me.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Disappointments
Pastor Kong talks about being forgiving and giving mercy to those who have greviences against us. Hmm... I personally felt that its really the most important part in our lives to be forgiving and at the same time, like Jesus, forgets others sins. Always try to put urself in dat person shoes who seeks forgiveness from ya. Would you, given the same circumstances, seek forgiveness from dat person u sin against ?
Anyway, I realise not alot of pple r willing to be gracious to pple who have hurt them. Part of the reason might be cos the person might have hurt him/her somewhere deep in their hearts. Taunting and hurtful remarks are also a way of protecting themselves from the same hurts again.
Been disappointed with someone lately. I seriously dun tink I deserve the kind of tactlessness dat the person displayed towards me. And yes, I did hear those sarcastic remarks passing here and there. Well, if I have really caused dat much of hurts inside of you, den I do sincerely do apologised. But kindly saved ur sarcastic remarks to someone else.
Anyway, I realise not alot of pple r willing to be gracious to pple who have hurt them. Part of the reason might be cos the person might have hurt him/her somewhere deep in their hearts. Taunting and hurtful remarks are also a way of protecting themselves from the same hurts again.
Been disappointed with someone lately. I seriously dun tink I deserve the kind of tactlessness dat the person displayed towards me. And yes, I did hear those sarcastic remarks passing here and there. Well, if I have really caused dat much of hurts inside of you, den I do sincerely do apologised. But kindly saved ur sarcastic remarks to someone else.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Knuckle-size Portion
Since a few weeks ago, after seeing my fren who has been successful in her dieting, I decided to adopt wat i call the "knuckle-size portion" diet. Basically, its an all natural way of dieting simply by jus eating a smaller portion of wat u have. Well, initially, i was abit apprehensive as my knuckle is really small...And im a food lover! This is going to be hell for me !
Well, after trying for a few weeks, im surprised dat it actually works ! My stomach feels smaller (not so bak bak anymore). One thing I must add, it is done with the rite amt of exercise too. I feel less sleepy after lunch...Hmm.. Slowly, im going to say bye bye to my "bye bye arms". Heehee..
Back to my emotional check.. Hmm.. Been feeling better these few days... Probably alot of things had been cleared up and also, been getting alot of support from frens too. Most importantly, God gave me the strength ! The road to recovery is still a long way to go but nevertheless, I will still walk thru. At the lowest of the valley pt, there is always a turn for to go up the mountains !
Well, after trying for a few weeks, im surprised dat it actually works ! My stomach feels smaller (not so bak bak anymore). One thing I must add, it is done with the rite amt of exercise too. I feel less sleepy after lunch...Hmm.. Slowly, im going to say bye bye to my "bye bye arms". Heehee..
Back to my emotional check.. Hmm.. Been feeling better these few days... Probably alot of things had been cleared up and also, been getting alot of support from frens too. Most importantly, God gave me the strength ! The road to recovery is still a long way to go but nevertheless, I will still walk thru. At the lowest of the valley pt, there is always a turn for to go up the mountains !
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Happy Mother's Day
May 13th... A day whereby the whole world would presumely joyously celebrate tis special day with their dearest moms. Well, I did the same with my mom too... We went out for a late dinner at the nearby zhi char store. As usual on any special days, there were tons of pple and so the waiting time was horrendously long. Nevertheless, we got our food and due to mass production, the food did not taste as nice as wat has been expected.
Hmm.. Maybe its due to the weather today or cos im stuck at home the whole day, im feeling abit moody. I realise nowadays im so much proned to getting mood swings and even tend to get unreasonable at times. Im finding myself more n more irritating by the days.. Dunno wat is happening to me... I jus wan to be the old sue chow im used to be. Well, maybe as the times go by, alot of things have changed, hence im becoming more irritable too. If this continues, Im jus so afraid I will break down mentally and go into depression again. Hmm.. I seriously dunno wat is happening to me and neither do I know wat i want anymore. Can somebody pls read my mind ? Oh God, I prayed You hear my prayer every nite n let me know wats happening to me. Thank you Jesus.
Hmm.. Maybe its due to the weather today or cos im stuck at home the whole day, im feeling abit moody. I realise nowadays im so much proned to getting mood swings and even tend to get unreasonable at times. Im finding myself more n more irritating by the days.. Dunno wat is happening to me... I jus wan to be the old sue chow im used to be. Well, maybe as the times go by, alot of things have changed, hence im becoming more irritable too. If this continues, Im jus so afraid I will break down mentally and go into depression again. Hmm.. I seriously dunno wat is happening to me and neither do I know wat i want anymore. Can somebody pls read my mind ? Oh God, I prayed You hear my prayer every nite n let me know wats happening to me. Thank you Jesus.
Friday, May 04, 2007
Some mixture of tots
Hmm... Labour Day. A day whereby i experienced another first in my life. Camping in Pulau Ubin...
It certainly is fun and exciting as I have never been so tired cycling from one campsite to another. Finally settling down on one spot, much to my horror, we have forgotten the charcoals for the bbq ! And then we hav to cycle all e way back to jetty and get some. Haha.. Overall, it was a really good experience thru e nite though it rain the nxt morning and we gotta hide inside the pathetic tent cos we forgot the umbrella. The tent was drenched too n leaking cos of the heavy storm. I have nv felt so helpless in the wild before n dat moment, I begin to pray for God to stop. And indeed it did ! I even told my fren we gotta believed in the prayer I made... What a way to evangelise ! Haha.. Thank you Jesus !
Anyway, these few days been on emotional roller coaster... Well, there have been moments of emptiness jus creeping in and of cos there have been moments of joy. Maybe cos I have been receiving news that alot of my frens r getting married nxt yr. I started to feel kan cheong n pray dat I will make the right decision at the rite time. Hmm... Seriously, Am I ready for marriage now ? Am I really doing the rite thing at dat time ? Does it matter so much ? Haiz.. all these tots kept bothering me and I certainly noe there are a few pple who will be reading all of these here. What I wanna say is I pray hard hard dat God's will will unfold to me very soon.
It certainly is fun and exciting as I have never been so tired cycling from one campsite to another. Finally settling down on one spot, much to my horror, we have forgotten the charcoals for the bbq ! And then we hav to cycle all e way back to jetty and get some. Haha.. Overall, it was a really good experience thru e nite though it rain the nxt morning and we gotta hide inside the pathetic tent cos we forgot the umbrella. The tent was drenched too n leaking cos of the heavy storm. I have nv felt so helpless in the wild before n dat moment, I begin to pray for God to stop. And indeed it did ! I even told my fren we gotta believed in the prayer I made... What a way to evangelise ! Haha.. Thank you Jesus !
Anyway, these few days been on emotional roller coaster... Well, there have been moments of emptiness jus creeping in and of cos there have been moments of joy. Maybe cos I have been receiving news that alot of my frens r getting married nxt yr. I started to feel kan cheong n pray dat I will make the right decision at the rite time. Hmm... Seriously, Am I ready for marriage now ? Am I really doing the rite thing at dat time ? Does it matter so much ? Haiz.. all these tots kept bothering me and I certainly noe there are a few pple who will be reading all of these here. What I wanna say is I pray hard hard dat God's will will unfold to me very soon.
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