Walking on the streets

Today, we have a really fun day at the fish spa. But as I walked through CCK Lot 1, I couldnt stop but think of the memories again. Many things have changed in that shopping centre, but the memories were fresh. How we started out with empty pockets. How we will breezed through the shopping mall. How you will give me a "mthly" gift to symbolise ur love for me even though u were just a student back then. Somehow, its not the gift but the heart dat always touched me to the core. Today, everything have changed. You and I are no longer the same person dat we used to be.

As I walked thru the path to the bus stop at holland village, once again, I could feel the memories haunting me again. How we spent every sunday there just walking ard. How u and I will get the DVDs at the shop. Much to my reluctance, the memories came. I could only try to stop it popping at my head. And also the only thing I could do to let it out is writting this blog. Cos I know no one wld read this and u will get to know too so I could just vent watever I bottled up within here.

Of cos, God knows everything. But I hope that God can take it away and erase it. Cos I do not keep wanting to live in this shadow. And I know that if he is happy, I will be truly happy for him too. Hope God will continue to bless him and his loved ones. Amen.

Waiting for that day

I didnt know when it all started. I didnt know if it will ever have an ending too.But as I watched the sad sad show on TV this week, I cannot help but feel if that day will ever come. It seem that day is further and further away... But I cannot help myself in not thinking abt it. Yes... I have always envision to get rescued from my house by probably a "knight in shining armour"

I love my family greatly. But somehow or another, I have always pictured myself to have my very own family. Somewhere and someone to build a beautiful home with me. Once, this dream has nearly come to past, but cos of the mistake I made, I have let that go. Now, once again, Im wishing really that someone could just take me away from all these burdens I have within. Someone who is willing to appear suddenly out of my doorstep and take me away to somewhere I will call home. Perhaps, many will laugh at me for being naive. However, I couldnt stop myself from wishing that as I always envisioned since young that the rite person will take me away from my home.

Now as that dream seem so far away, I could not help but face up to the reality. Certainly that notion will be stronger at some pts of my life, but I guess I could just chuck it aside and still be the person that I have always been. I couldnt tell anyone wat I think cos they will nv understand why I would have tis tot at all. But perhaps, someone else in the world will.

For that, I do not know.

A whole new start again

I have been experiencing great changes and transition for these couple of years. Be it in relationship, career, spiritual life. Its really have been a roller coaster for all the aspects of my life. From getting to married soon to being single now, the transition of my relationship life has been one of the greatest lesson I learnt in my life. Now, I am totally clear abt the type of partner I am looking for to spend the rest of my life. :)

In addition, my career took on a new start as I have now preparing to leave the place where all these sad moments have occurred. I hoped with the new job, I will be able to move to another level with my career. Just wanna thank God for all the good things He had done in my life for the last 6 mths. His WOrds nv failed and when u sow bountifully, surely u will reap bountifully. I am a live testimony of that as what I reaped from all my company award, bonus, increments and new job increments are much more I can think or imagine. Hmm... I really hope all the bad memory will be put behind and a new future will be embracing towards me. Amen. :)

Fields of gold

"Fields of Gold" is a song by Eva cassidy. I cannot help but fell in love with this soulful voice of hers. Not only is the melody nice, but also there is something abt this song dat I just cannot explain. Perhaps its abit like love. Many a times, u dunno wat got into u, but there is just abt that person dat u like dat u do not know how to explain.

Once again, I have heard one of my colleague tying the knot soon. Im really happy for her. Though I know the nxt qn by all the aunties from my company will be "when is ur turn ?". Hmm... This qn nv daunt upon me now as Im feeling really self-sufficient now. I have gotten quite comfortable with my lifestyle now that I began to feel dat it is unneccessary to have a bf or even a husband for the rest of my life. Perhaps its all the unneccessary quarrels, troubles that it bring that scare me off. But seriously, at this pt of time, Im really contented and happy being single. Well, probably I should start also buying a big "piggy" bank for all the wedding ang paos that Im going to give out for the rest of my frens soon.