Recent few weeks...

My xmas eve eve dinner...



A mind-blowing ice cream waffle ! Yummy !

Your Dominant Intelligence is Logical-Mathematical Intelligence

You are great at finding patterns and relationships between things.Always curious about how things work, you love to set up experiments.You need for the world to make sense - and are good at making sense of it.You have a head for numbers and math ... and you can solve almost any logic puzzle. You would make a great scientist, engineer, computer programmer, researcher, accountant, or mathematician.

Busy day...

It was a calm and quiet day until the moment i stepped into my office after my lunch hour. Suddenly activities began to take place one by one. Firstly, my beloved fren, Jane, who has just become a mom called and asked me to assist her in sending out invites to her baby 1st mth celebration. Next, I began to draft out the long message abt the gift and date of the celebration n screen thru all the names of my contacts to find some long lost frens which I have not contacted in awhile.

Well.. that was only the beginning, suddenly I have to travel to the factory nxt block n look at the new prototype of my company TV for 2007 and try to detect n solve the problems. The moment Im back, Im being pulled into a what i call "bo liao" meeting for a farewell meeting nxt week for my VP. In the meeting, I realised I have one thousands things that have not yet prepared and need to be done by nxt fri.. Arghh.. I have so little time. (PS: And im totally pissed by a fellow committee member who since day 1, keep bossing me ard..) Comeon, she can polished her shoe well but dun boss me ard. Though I have to act in love, but sometimes just cun tahan some pple.

The highlight will be nxt thurs n fri whereby I have a rather big meeting at which me(a small fry) have to represent my boss and conduct the meeting. Arghh..

Feeling quite drain now cos of so much nitty gritty going ard. Seriously, I really long to dump all my burdens here and go australia to study. I dun like my job and my working environment. I want to see the world outside n not be confined to this little desk of mine. Arghh... Prince Shin, Where r u ?

Food rant

Last nite, me and my dear went to United Square and got a phone for his dad. As we were deciding on what to eat, this little shop, Bi Feng Tang at the basement caught our eyes.

This is a shop that sells roast duck/chicken rice or noodles. My dear immediately gave me the distaste from his look cos he nv likes roast duck. Even though our favourite jap food joint, Genki Sushi, was just nearby, we have to resist the temptation as we both know we need to save up for our building fund. Hence, we settle down on this shop to have a quick dinner.

We ordered soya sauce chicken with noodles and rice, a plate of vege and also wanton soup. When the noodle came, it look so yucky that immediately I lost my appetite. The chicken was overcooked ! To our horror, the oyster vege came and trust me, there were so much stems in it dat we could hardly spot any leaves in it. I immediately qn the waitress and she jus shrugged n said,"this is the way it is..". I mean, what kind of restaurant nowadays still have such low standard. Even food courts served better vege than this. The barley drink we ordered have not a single barley inside and it was so diluted i feel i was drinking water... It spoiled my whole appetite for the whole nite.

All in all, if u r reading my blog, dun ever go there. The service sux, the food sux. I tink my meal in Macdonald would have given me a bigger satisfaction den there.

A prince in life ?

I have been so captivated in this drama series "Goong" that even at times when Im resting, the characters will keep playing in my mind. I began to start and dream about having a prince like Prince Shin in my life. At this point, I began to doubt my sanity. Cos there never will be any "prince" in our lives or at least mine that will be like the character portrayed in the show.

The hustle and bustle of life often reminded me to be practical and realistic. Well, being the gurl at heart, the tot of having a prince charming coming into my office and taking me away from my horrible job do always seep in once in awhile. Oh, how I also long to be like the princess in the show to have the prince fussing and jeolous about you or even to go on romantic getaways once in awhile. Well, as what I have discussed with my fren before, that can only happen in drama. 99.99% of it does not happen in real life and the 0.01% is in the dramas.

So gurls, be realistic ! I agree that fantasy once in awhile will not kill but do not overdo it such dat it clouds ur tinking(as wat it do to me now, heehee). And yes, dear.. Though you might not be prince Shin, but you are definately the one dat will make my fantasy come true once in awhile ! :)

25

25. A number that siginfies the quarter of a century. A number that represents the start of aging and most of all, a number that finally haunts me down on the 21st Oct 2006.

This birthday was certainly an experience for me. It was filled with ups and downs. Ups being the things that pple do for me and downs being the expectations that I had placed on others.

I was especially touched by my dear.Though he did not plan out the whole nite properly, it was still so sweet of him to try his utmost best to fulfill my every wishes. And yes, dear, i do find it very cute that you stuffed the flowers into the plastic bag for me cos u were so shy holding it.

Much of the frenzies also come and go as I went on an expensive Brazilian meal in 6th ave with my supposedly now ex-cg members. Though burning a hole in our pockets, u guys were nice to have the meal with me. Cos I nv did expected it.

And there were my bunch of ex-colleagues... Thanks for the expensive camera u guys bot me. Vin, I know you pay a big portion. U really should not have. ANd congrats to ur promo... Thanks for listening me out and bothering to ans me back for all those long emails I sent out to u.

And last but not least, thanks to the pple who sent me the above bouquet of flowers to my company. It was certainly a huge shock and surprise and embarrassment as my colleagues were all crowding to my table and see wat happened. Thanks for the celebration in TCC too. Dun feel bad abt forgetting my birthday in the first place cos its really ok with me lah. Jus that nxt time try other initials other den XXX... haha...

FInally, everything is over... Its back to my workplace typing out this blog.. haha

The feeling of Loneliness..

I always prided myself as one who are relatively good at handling frenships. But these few weeks proved otherwise for me. All of a sudden, I suddenly feel that I dunno who are my frens or should I say, whether they are of existance anymore.

Well, Im seriously not complaining that my frens are not nice. In fact, they are angels that touched my heart in one moment or another. Perhaps the fault lie in me that I did not make a conscious effort in holding on to all these lovely angels. Though my dear always say "frens come and go, they are not constant" but i really disagree with him. I seriously tink that God created frens to be forever else we will have nobody to share our little secrets with, no one to discuss that latest fashion with etc.

I dunno how long this moment of loneliness is going to creep inside of me before i moved onto another stage. But jus hope that by blogging it here, i can have a channel to release watever depressing feeling i have within me.

Just plain bored and Irritated

How selfish can a person really be ? Jus a moment of tot after wat 1 of my company's manager did. I just wanna let off my anger n frustration here. He actually stop 1 of his team member from sharing his training materials with me even though all materials were properties of the company. He even stop him from communicating with me. What is all these for ? Just cos he wanna protect his own buttocks. This person really allows me to see how ugly and selfish a man can be. Man like him r pathetic n no wonder his whole team hate him. Doesn't even noe how to socialise and how to be a good manager at all. Management must be blind to promote him. (Sorry for all the rage here cos I really cannot take it..)

Anyway, dun wan to continue to waste my time writing abt him. I have been going thru many transitions lately and really thank God that He gave me strength to deal with it all. I dunno how long I will last in this sucky company but meanwhile gotta still hold on. My boss is on business trip again and Im left alone to zhuo bo for many days again. Hope nxt week will be better. :)

Sleepy...

Feeling extremely exhausted and sluggish after a very fulfilling weekend. Haha... Especially friday and yesterday !

Friday was a special day for me cos its my grandma birthday ! The whole family were present except my uncle. We went to this little "zhi cha" store near my granny's place. The food was sucky ! Afterwhich, my brother drove me to clarke quay to meet my frens for lihui birthday.. To cut a long story short, we had a tremendous time at settler's cafe playing all the different varieties of boardgames... Well, added on is the satisfaction that lihui really do like the beautiful watch we gave. Always bring me a kind of satisfaction when pple like the gift that I have a share in choosing. Haha.. would definately be going back to the cafe for more great games.

Me and my dear went house moving for his sister, April. We went for lunch first and then proceed to move all her stuffs to the new hostel in her sch, RP. Her apartment was like a condo to me and its really very big and modern and nice. Like wat u can see in those magazines. Her room was so cozy too. Especially yummy also as her window views were just above the sport complex... Yummy !!! Haha.. After that, me n my dear went shopping ! Its good to go for shopping after you get ur pay.. Haha.. We can buy anything without much tot.. But i know the consequences will come around middle of the month.. Uh oh! Well, heck care lah, as long as we really did enjoy ourselves !

Frustrated...

Well...I had just ended 3 days long meeting whereby Im being enclosed in a room full of big-shot pple. Being the tiniest fry in the whole of the group, naturally i was reduced to more of a wall paper in the background. Could'nt believed that the total sentances I made during the 3 days were less than 10... Pathetic... I could only say I had "hell" of a good time there.
Well, the only advantage I gained from the meeting is sharpening my fake american accent which I think would probably lose it in another day or 2.

Another matter that agitated me or rather got me very vex is the transition I experienced in my cell gp. I felt that my point has not gotten over with my leader. I mean, seriously, I really do admire and respect him for the things he did and he is really really a very good leader in my context. But its just that there is a dfferentiation of viewpoints regarding this transition. That just so frustrate me as I just want everything to run smoothly... Oh God, can You grant me the strength to get out of these frustrations ? Arghh......

Bored And Thinking

Its the afternoon and Im feeling absolutely bored. Being that I have nothing much to do during work. The tireless afternoon jus slowly drift by. Hmm.. Let me just talk about the past week church service.

On saturday, the church service was one of those that whereby you really can feel the tangible presence of God. Its as if you can literally feel Him and touch Him... The worship was wonderful and His love pours down from above. I wept so much that I think my whole makeup was smeared. Communication is really an essential tool among the relationship of people. The lesson has certainly taught both me and my dear how to communicate even better in the future. The last part of the service was especially heart-rending when we were asked to stand close together and sing the lovely song "I love you.......". I was so shy that I couldn't look him in the eye. Probably this has never been done in church so openly for dating couples bah.. haha.. The memories still sweet in my mind....

During the whole afternoon of zhuo bo ing, I actually went and google 1 of my fren's blog. From that blog, I begin to understand more of her at different stages and phases of her life. One's life is never too easy unless there is constant motivation and encouragement from your loved ones. Be it your frens, loved one, family etc... I think at some point of my life, I have been selfish and self-centred that I have overlooked all my loved one's well being. I sincerely apologised for that and hoped that I can truly learn to always treasure and stand by them whenever they needed me.

A touching moment...

The love of God that surpasses all understanding flow through many of us last nite during ministry. Its been quite awhile since His presence is so strong and tangible.

Tears flow... Heart repaired...It was a moment whereby many of us will remember for quite awhile. Even someone whom I know so dearly was touched by that moment. I just prayed that God's presence will touched him from the inside out and unleased the years of anger and rage that is kept locked up at the corner of his heart.

And I also do pray that God will saturate his inner being with a deeper love. Love for God and love for humanity... Let us run this race together !

Loving Memories

Lunch Kakis...

The SPEAIS team... Miss u all...

Hey girl take care !!! Will Miss ya much...

Starting on a new journey..

Another new journey has started for me. Changing to a new job has taken me great considerations...WHy ? Cos I would not bear leaving my comfort zone. Be it the laughter me and my colleagues shared, the little secrets we hold so tightly together and of cos the friendship we build throughout the year... To be frank, I really miss them alot after I started my new job.

My new environment is one with alot of people with very different background than myself. Most of them have already been rised up to the level of parenthood for quite awhile and I could easily be one of their daughters. With the vast difference in age gap, no longer do I share anything similar to my colleagues anymore. Well... its ultimately my choice and I cun regret any of it at all.

To the people out there, please consider carefully if you ever wanna change your job.

Giving or Taking ?

Have you ever been in a position of dilemma ? Giving and taking... which one will u choose ?
Giving... Such a noble and welcome act by most whose morality is shaped by the education of the modern world. The bible says " Give, and it will be given back to you...". What an encouraging phrase that talks about self-sacrifice. But when the selfish desire of man sets in, emotions began to cloud the very basic foundation of this understanding.

Emotions haunts you down to just wanna concentrate on yourself and learn to take from others. Taking is so much easier. Taking is so much more comfortable. A train of thought just about your own individual self sets in and you are carried away with this dreadful desire. I am right here and right now caught in this overwhelming sensation of deciding the so-called "correct" way of doing things.

WHat should I do ? That is something that is going to disturb the normal activities of my brain for awhile....

Lost sensation

A day of utter boredom....What a way to describe a day whereby the whole Chinese population worldwide is looking forward to ! Probably that's because I'm born in a small extended family whereby celebrating Chinese new year is just any other day of the year...

Bored by the thought that i have to stay in the whole day, my hand inadvertantly went for the New Year Goodies on the table. Stuffing n stuffing... ring ring... my heart overwhelmed with joy when my fren called. An oppuntunity to be out ! Little did I know it was for tomorrow programme...

And the reason i input such a boring blog is cos my dear advise me to write some solid stuff.. though i tot this is sucky..

Happie Chinese New Year !

It's another new year... The old year has past away..In the flick of an eye, lots of things n pple had changed...What is left is old beautiful memories that are etch deep in my brain..

With my dear overseas, im left alone on this chinese new year eve. Looking forward to the delicious and appetizing reunion dinner that is gonna be served later. Just received my medical report... hmm.... a little high on the cholesterol...

This came not as a shock to me as I love seafood. Tink gonna cut down on dat..This chinese new year gonna be a lonely one as it usually is cos i simply got too few relatives to spend it with.
Unusual for a traditional family.. Guess i gotta start growing mushrooms around my house..