The frivolous of it all

Recently, Facebook have been the craze for tracking frens updates and some used it for mean purposes like stalking as well. I have enjoyed the benefits of what technology has brought. The social networking website is a good place to keep in touch with our frens, some you might not have seen in eons ago; connecting you in a split second with the others with just a few lines at the messages inbox.

However, I have heard some of my frens complained lately that who and who have been deleted and blocked, I was appalled. Once a victim ( I was deleted and blocked by the jerk, surprised!! Such audacity when im the one being cheated and used.. well, not to say, i was exceptionally kind to him as well.. but the basic respect shld be just leaving it as it is...). Anyway, I heard abt another fren of mine blocking her own HUSBAND from scanning through her FB. Seriously, what has invented for the good of all mankind, has turned into some how a weapon for hatred.. I absolutely felt frivolous in blocking and deleting pple who u called as a fren once. (well, if its a stranger stalking you, then I really tink its fine dat u block him..) In the first place, if this is what you have considered a fren or close one at the beginning, then why did it all ended so sour on it... Besides, its just a public social networking website. If you are so afraid of your status being stalked by your frens, then why apply for the account in the first place ? If pple across the globe (whom u might not have seen for 10-20 yrs) can know about your status, then shouldnt your husband at the very least know too ?

It just boiled down how much u dislike that person dat the very tot that he/she knows your life updates makes u uncomfortable that forces u to make such a big effort to delete/block him/her. In the first place, why cun men be more magnanimous with each other or rather leave as it-is ? Frivolous, Frivolous.. tsk tsk..

Unexpected

"He is getting married soon" These are the words that echoed throughout my whole weekend. My whole being broke down. Once again, I feigned a strong front in front of my fren who broke the news to me. By the time I reached home, its already 1 am. Yet, his words echoed through and through. I have always anticipated it and seen it coming. I mean, its been 2 yrs since we ended the r/s and 2 yrs he had been with her, I have also mentally prepared it as well.

However,the reality hit me harder than expected. The tears flowed non-stopped. Unexpectedly, I cried myself to sleep. I never thought I would ever cry for him again. I thought I had moved on ever since 2 yrs ago since I have 2 others after him. However, I was just fooling myself all these while. The love never leave me and it was deeper than I imagined. However, I know I ought to let it go totally. This day will come sooner and later. I wished them happiness in their marriage. Im really happie for them.

Now back at my workplace, I no longer feel any anger towards that jerk. Cos I know it doesnt matter, cos I know who is actually the one I loved most in life. Perhaps the deletion of his blog earlier has told me that it has totally ended many yrs ago. I ought to wake up. I also realised that telling my frens are futile. Yes, my dearies loved me dearly and I know they stood by me. But I really cun stand 1 fren of mine, CQ. This is the 2nd time she just said, Move on. Honestly, I was angered by her insensitivity. I know she is troubled by her own stuffs but this is not an excuse for insensitivity. Haiz.. For now, maybe I should hide from the world and go back to my own cave....

Trip to Bangkok again

This trip to Bangkok was initially started by my dearie sammie. As its her bdae, she wanted to get out of the country and went for a trip. Hence, both me and dearie tal went along too. As this is my 2nd trip there, I do not exactly find it exciting or something. But lo and behold, I realised its not the place that you are going, its the company you are with that makes the difference.

Through the 3 and half days of shoppings, we through thick and thin together. Seeking for the best bargains, walking till our legs almost broke, caught in the rain, sharing an umbrella among 3 of us, overeating in every meal etc etc. These are all unexpected initially but its really fun. It makes me forget about the pressures and life I have in Singapore for awhile. It made me realized that frenship is something given by God to make our lives so much easier. Frens comfort the sore part of u and makes u feel everything is gonna be alrite. Frens braved the storms with you and cried with you in times of need. I know that this trip is really special to all of us as we are going through stuffs in our own individual lives. I really thank God for the frens I made in my life.

Last nite, I got the news that the jerk is going after his ex gf, J, before me. The packs of lies he told were so evident. Thank God for frens that are with me. I also thank God that I have no relation with this jerk anymore. All he ever said were just packs of lies and trying to protect himself all the way.Lies that he wun be going after another girl for at least half a yr, lies that he and J are difficult to get back together... Well.. I have seen thru his facade of fakeness. I thank God that He have saved me from him.