Lost and Found again

Believe it or not. This is the 2nd time I have lost something and by God's grace, I have found it again. Probably to some of us, this might be attributed to sheer coincidence, but I felt that God is teaching me something here.

What I have recovered this time is my beloved ipod shuffle. The one dat I lost a few weeks ago. Much to my delight and unbelief, it was actually hidden inside one of my tiny bag's pocket which I cun simply cun remember when I have put dat in. The lesson this time from God : Though I have lost something and bear some hurts over it initially, the pain somehow subsided thru time. I was ready to move on to the all new ipod nano. But right in the midst of me searching all the prices for it, all of a sudden, it appeared in my sight. I was thrilled with joy. Much more then if I have gotten a new ipod nano. Hmm.. Perhaps God is teaching me that when somethings r lost and found again, the joy that follows will always be greater than the new thing that have come to replace it. Right now, He has taught me how to treasure it even more. Though its an inexpensive little shuffle, what holds a bigger meaning to me is the tot behind it.

From this little episode, I have learnt that the past is the past. Whatever is going to happen in the future, I do not know. But... I ought to treasure whatever I have now cos this is one certainty in life u are sure with. THE PRESENT... Expect the best in the future but dun ever overlook things that are ard u. Cos u do not know when somehow or another, something dat is dear to u might be lost to u forever and then u be in regrets... Always found someone to love(family, frens, loved ones etc) in our lives, cos u nv noe when they will be gone... Im going to love my job, my frens and of cos, my dear family more tis yr !

The season

The season is looming or shld i say the season is here. Prior to the efforts I made for almost a yr, the feelings inevitably returns to haunt me again. Indeed, like wat my fren says, there is always a sensitive period in everyone's heart. Be it christmas, CNY, valentine or even pretty normal days like today or tmr. It can either bring joy or in my case, a ting of sadness.

Albeit trying to tell myself to be strong in the past yr, I can no longer deny to myself dat Im actually very weak. Albeit counseling others of emotional hurts caused by r/s, yet, I noe deep down I have not fully recovered. Never anticipating it will happen to me, I was suddenly been beaten by this wave of emotional upheavals dat surge my beings. Perhaps I have never ever let go almost a yr ago. I scolded myself for constantly deluding my own being. Though the constant prayer do help to lift up my spirit abit and I really thank God for the strength He hav given to me for the past yr, this seasons of imminent CNY and Valentine's day nv fail to bring me to the past of how he and I had celebrated. That horrible phone call images keep ringing in my head. Your negative answer to my question hit me to my lowest pit.

I knew I have definately decided to give up on you but y r the images still so clear in my mind ? Perhaps it is a test by God to see my determination of letting u go. Haiz.. What can I do ? Who will understand what Im going thru ? Who will ever read this blog and give me an answer to all these questions ? I prayed dat God will plant this seed of forgetfulness in me so I could forget.

And albeit feeling beaten, I knew u will be very much excited on the gifts and things u going to do for your gf. I prayed dat both of u will enjoy this season together. What I could not have given to you, I prayed dat this girl will give it to you... Be happy always.

Batam !

Hee... Went for a short short holiday wif my dear sammie and her bf,GS and fren, William. Both me and sammie got wild with the massage and the foot reflexology and of cos, the shopping was enough to burn a big hole on our pockets even though at such a small island as batam. We spent all the money we had on the first few hrs we reached batam and had to even ask GS (who arrived at a later ferry) to pay for all the rest of the trip.. Haha.. Sorry GS... Now, here are some photos we took :


2 Blind Girls !


GS and His Fren, William


At the hotel...

I finally lost it...

Hmm.. Its been awhile since I last blogged. Alot of things happened along the way. Well, shall not elaborate the details here. But most importantly, I lost my beloved ipod shuffle who was given to me by someone. I liked this shuffle very much as I could go jogging with it due to its sheer small size. Well, thats just maybe the subsidiary reason that makes my heart so pain. Indeed, its time for change...

Time to change to the new ipod nano. Though with lotsa reluctance, sometimes pple gotta change. Moving on is often the word tagged along with changes. Perhaps its really time for me to move on to someone new. Though once in awhile, the owner of the shuffle still haunts my tots for awhile, but, there really is nothing much left for me to do except give my utmost blessing to him n his beloved.

And yes, that mech guy in the office is sure a temptation I cun resist at times. His jokes n jovialness never fail to lift up my dull spirit. And the constant bickerings we had nv fail to make me crave for more cos of the laughters we always burst out in. Well... but thats only a temptation.. A temptation I know I have to guard myself against.. I will allow myself no more hurts in this new year.

Happie New Year 2008 !

Happie New Year 2008 ! Im so glad to be saying goodbye to 2007... Indeed, 2007 is a year full of challenges for me. Like what the bible says, the best is yet to come. Im anticipating 2008 to be the best year ahead. Away will be the bad pasts of 2007 and from this day onwards, Im going to embrace 2008 with a brand new attitude towards my career, family, frens, and loved ones too.

Though 2007 has a really tough year (I did something dat was so wrong to somebody n cost immense hurt to dat someone I once love the most and of cos, I bore dat responsibility of losing him forever now to somebody new at work), I will chose to hold these as lessons learnt and indeed 2008 will be a time for me to forget all those n embrace new things. I also thank God dat during these most difficult times, God has changed me so much from being a very difficult person ( temperamental, emotional being) to someone now who has really learnt to not flare up at the slightest things. Maybe dats the evidence dat the Holy Spirit is so real to me as He brings His peace n calmness in my life. In the year ahead, I wanna love my mom and dad more. Of cos, I wanna begin to fly to places I had been dreaming about. Im so excited dat 2008 is here and indeed, I sincerely believed it will be the greatest year ahead for my life !