Xmas is here

Indeed xmas is a season of joy, hope and love and of cos, not forgetting our dear Jesus who gave us a chance to enjoy all of these... Hmm... Almost lost something forever that is very dear to me last nite. Though the phone is rather old but it still meant alot to me. (not forgetting tis is building fund season 2 !) Why ? U would ask me.. Hmm.. Cos its given to me by someone who was once very special... The moment I lose it, I almost tot maybe its a sign I shld move on and buy a new one. But maybe God noes wat Im thinking and He miraculously allow me to find it again. Indeed the feeling of lost and found is something beyond description. Probably this is all a coincidence, well, Im not going to think of that and will continue to treasure wat I have now.



GY and Me !



Isn't It so beautiful ?



My dearies !

The Ring

The ring !! All I wanted... So nice.. Haha

The feeling of Transparency

It certainly came as a surprise to me to have met someone in the middle of the nite rite at a place I have not been for a long time and which carried certain memories of the past btw us. Most surprisingly, we sat only a table away from each other.

I can also see the shock on ur face too when I saw u. Nevertheless, jus unassumingly like in the office, we continued with our conversations with our frens, treating each other as transparent in our lives. Hmm... I could not explain why I still have that sunken feeling inside of me. Though I was having fun joking around wif my frens, which I can see u r too with ur 3 pretty ladies frens, this sunken feeling crept inside of me too. Perhaps u might never understand wat I talked abt, but I guess this is the feeling of unease of treating someone once so close in disregard. I din know when I can do it before. Perhaps its the way u started the transparency thingy first.. The no contact, no communication, in the office often makes me uneasy but I noe its the way u want it so I will continue with it though with reluctance. Cos never in my life, I will treat a fren or someone like dat before. Perhaps this is the weaker side of me... Always disliking the fact or the idea dat someone is disliking u or going out of his way to avoid u. Why must things turn out this way so sourly ? I will think. Why cun we put down watever is in the past and be frens again ? I will asked.

But all these r just questions I will occasionally think of. However, to face up to reality, I will respect this decision u have chosen btw us. Yah, and I certainly will still give my best wishings in watever u do. For now, I wan to love myself more and will not allow to submit myself to this thinking anymore. Thanks to my Lord and frens, I am walking out of the shadow of the valleys.