Sunday

Its a sunday today. It became more bearable than last week. His absence somehow has started to become a familiarity to me. I packed myself from head to toes with household chores and family activities so I wouldnt have time to think about him. Yet, I know, deep down im missing him and always trying to check if he has msn me.

Nope, he didnt. I dunno wat he is doing, neither do I know where he is now. Are we still being considered as together ? Or are we just pretending to be ? All I know being in a relationship is definately not like dat. I always have anticipation that he will call me during weekends but my hope was always broken. I dare not hope again. I dare not have any expectations anymore too. Cos I know if my expectations does not happened, the only disappointed one will be myself. Rather than having any expectations, i will choose to be strong and live on this single life again. Knowing that if he really do love me, he will be the one doing all these.

But if his heart is with another girl, I dunno wat to do too. Yeah, I will wish them the best. There's the words I always had it in my head. But will I really be able to do it ? Thats another question. Right now, I will just choose to ignore and bo chup. Hoping that this episode of my life will be healed with the presence of time.