Hmm.. Been really busy nowadays. Its as if God suddenly knows im alone and hence, sent forth many tasks to keep myself occupied. This morning, I have to wake up really early to go east coast to recce the area for the cg outreach next sunday.
Tonite, my long time good fren is getting married ! Im really happy for him. Though sometimes will keep thinking when will it be my turn. Hee...
Last nite, I told my fren who is getting married "its not abt where u stay, its abt who u stayed with" as he was telling us they were fervently looking for a place to dwell in. Suddenly, I realised my mindset has changed. Maybe thanks to a person who once placed a great influence in my life. How are u ? Many times i will think. But... I will choose to stay in silence and watch u pass by. Are ur studies doing well and how are u preparing for ur exams ? These are the constant qns I wanna asked but stopped myself. I simply do not want to be a pest anymore and most importantly, the past is the past. Nothing can revived it. Perhaps what I can do is still secretly prayed to the Lord dat u will have success in life and ur studies.
Its time for me to go to the wedding, feeling happy for my fren but yet somewhere deep in my heart, there is a feeling of longing. Longing to see the rite person standing beside me, which, I dunno who for now. Right now, I need to be strong and independent.
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