Hmm... Today is really a day of ups and downs. I got emotional along the day and was thinking to myself "I had enough !". But after awhile, started to miss u again. Im really stupid... Wanted to cheer u up in the morning cos i tink u look stress but ended up hurting myself even more. Maybe i shouldnt do anything anymore... Probably dats the way it should go.
I finally plucked up the courage to talk to my cgl about u. She was very encouraging and did not hold it against me dat I have not be truthful to her all these 6 mths. Finally, the stress is over. Im able to heave a sign of relief. I dunno why we keep dancing so awkwardly today but i guess we both felt the awkwardness between us. Today i asked u whether u will bring me out for dinner anytime soon. Probably I gave myself hope but to have it dashed it on the floor again when u said u will only bring me out for dinner on or before my birthday. My heart was torn btw as a part of me so wanted to spend time with u but the other part I just din wan u to pity me. In the end, I finally plucked up the courage to give dat letter. The letter dat says it all on how i felt about us. But I do not know will u really have time to go thru all the photos n the letter. Probably its been chucked it aside.. I do not know and I might not want to know forever as I just dun wan the truth anymore.
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