We celebrated ah seet's bdae last nite. It was hell of a great nite out ! I love hanging out with the girls. But yet, what surprised me was the revelation that my fren actually told me she was going thru very hard times. I have always tot they were the perfect couple. Pretty, smart, fervent christians they both were. They both have a great career and future together. They both were so in love with each other since young.
But yet alot of times, it was not so.. Communication breakdown.. All these just lead me to think.. Even such a "perfect" Christian couple cannot go thru the storm together. What makes me tink i can actually find someone who can love me till the end? My heart went cold at the very tot. Maybe there is no forever.. I really do not dare to tink. Is God actually making us stronger by allowing us to go thru so much obstacles ? But.. isnt there another way ? I couldnt fathom.
The recent breakup is enough to make me so afraid of r/s that I dun tink i wanna try anymore. What if I meet another one that is just like him ? What if this time it could have gotten so much worst as we r married ? What if this guy cannot give me a forever? Or what if I cannot give him a forever too ? All those what ifs are enough to really have second tots abt all these.. Why not just spend the effort to gain knowledge and love the ones ard us.. In this world, there are other things beside love r/s.
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