27+

At the age of 27, one would have acheived much in their lives. Be it having a family, or bf or finances or even career... However, I acheived none in either one of the above category. Depressed, Defeated are the constant words I used on myself nowadays. No one would probably understand wat it means to be getting older and poorer at the same time. But I do...

Not only i lost a r/s 1 mth ago, but cos of that, my finances are dropping to the red line too. In addition, my position in the company is extremely dangerous too. Disheartened, I no longer feel the motivation to work. In the past, I have felt passion and zest for the work that I do. Sometimes even pride too. However, knowing that everyone is leaving soon and Im left behind is a feeling dat is just not so rite. The loneliness crept in.. But who can I really tell it to ? Pple will tink that im just self-pitying again. That ex bf on mine in the company nowadays will just ask me to smile... no longer care abt how I feel anymore.

Does God really understand the pain and sufferings Im going thru ? Why doesnt He answer then ? Is it He has given up hope on me who has let Him down time and again ? Does God knows Im not happy working where I am now ? Does God knows that Im simply trapped there cos I have no way out ? Does He understands that its painful to see someone u love so deeply once hurt u time and again ? Does He really know ???