Today, Im going to blog about 1 of the greatest mistake of my life. I can still live to re-tell it is cos of His grace and mercy that have upholds me for so many mths. The reason why I wanna re-tell this secretive part of my life is I have totally overcome it and live a victorious life.
Almost a yr ago, on Mar 24th, I started a r/s with a guy that I know is not wat God has meant for my life. You see, the problem is I have got a bf of 2 yrs and I loved him dearly. Marriage plans were on the way too but I always felt that he needed to change for the better before we can progressed in life together. At those few mths, my life were totally confused about our impending "marriage" together. You could say its "pre-marital" blues. Thinking that we needed space to overcome our shortcomings, I decided to break off this r/s. At this period of time, my colleague was after me too.
He is a rather dashing guy with lotsa humour and patience in the beginning. I went into the r/s not really loving him at all and also just so I got a companion. Well, by now, u would have tink I was a bi**h. Yes I was... In a state of confusion, I started a r/s wif him knowing pretty well dat God has shouted a big loud "NO". Well, like all r/s, all was well till he lose his love for me for just 6 mths ! At this period, I enjoyed his companion but deep down, I still have a strong love for my ex bf. However, not that I dun like this guy, I like him too but just not as strong as my previous. Anyway, in the beginning, he promises forever love like all guys too but as time goes by, his love for me waver through the endless quarrels we had. Instead of overcoming, he chose to end all this. Well, u noe how the story goes, he is my colleague so u can imagine how bad it was for the breakup. Anyway, facing the 2nd breakup in just a yr, I went into a sense of depression. I had suicidal tots. But thank God for wonderful angels in my life, I managed to pick up my life again. But me and that colleague of mine didnt even talk anymore. He just chose not to talk or look at me again. As if all faults were mine...
Anyway, I got the just deserts cos of this and little did I know, my ex (the one I love) also moved on in just 3 mths ! Hmm.. like wat God told me, this is the consequences for wanting my own way and going against His way. Well, I thank God that He is my pillar of strength in the midst of darkness. Today, I have totally healed and moved on too. Though this little hurt still crept up once in awhile, but I noe all things work together for good for those who loved Him. I hoped this greatest mistake of my life can be a reflection for those who are facing the same doubts abt marriage, being with non-christians etc etc. Generally, obedience to God's way is better den sacrifice.
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