Amazed

Last saturday, I was amazed at my own behaviour. Though the daddy was very worked up and rattled non-stop about how I should have the compassion on his tired kid, my face was all smiles. To be honest, I was quite taken aback but instead of firing back at him like what I will do in the past, I decided to hold it all in and give what i call as grace to him.

Though it was my every right to fire back at him for not thinking about the safety of my whole entire room of little babies with the notion dat his playgroup child wld have caused if I continued to let him stay in the room, I decided to hear him finished his heated speech. He finished with saying he totally understand my limitations but however, in my heart, I really do not know why he have to create such a scene if he totally understands. Like what probably auntie shirley says, he probably wanna voice out his frustrations. Sammie, who was by my side, was quite amazed at my calmness. I really do not know when I have become like this too. But I found dat the most common word I always said nowadays to others when they are worked up wif another person would be "give him/her grace". Hmm... Im really amazed at how God has changed me in tis 1 yr. Last time, I always tot how could Jesus have tolerated all the insinuations dat all the pple have given to Him. Isnt He angry at all ? Well, probably He is at times, but knowing dat the Father is love, He decided to give grace and forgiveness to all. Im really happy that my old bad temperamental self has changed. Its really not by my own strength or effort, but of cos by the power of the Holy Spirit. Im not perfect and there will be times I will still err but I know that God is using my circumstances to change me from the inside out bit by bit. Hallejuah !