Simply tired

Simply too tired.... Dun wish to struggle anymore... Can God give me back my happy moments ?

My frens always tell me God has something great in store for you when He allows u to go thru valleys in life. I tried to believe that at times but when situations happened, i doubted it too. Im only human... Sometimes I really need a shoulder to cry on, but 6 mths ago when i faced my breakup, the shoulder who was there for me to lean on is no longer here anymore. Where can I laid my head at ? Perhaps God is telling me dat i ought to be more independent cos if there's any circumstances, there really will be no one by ur side. I have learnt dat no matter how difficult the situation is, i can control my tears from falling. But sometimes its really difficult, cos they will fall inevitably. Who else will understand wat im going thru ?

Will still try to remain positive... if possible... but its so difficult...