Tonite is the wedding of one of our own colleague. I went with my colleagues for the whole solemnization ceremony. It was abit chaotic but nonetheless beautiful. At that moment, I tot of u. It dawned on me that in the past, i always wanted a perfect wedding e.g church wedding, beautiful diamond ring etc. Tonite i realise dat all these does not matter, the only thing dat matters is who is the one standing beside me. The one dat will truly love u and be secured with u the rest of ur life. It doesnt matter how beautiful ur wedding might be, its the one whom u get married dat matters.
On the way home, I had too much to drink and henceforth, u need to pacify me. U told me about ur life story. As i sat there listening, I was amazed at how far u actually tot. Like what u said, I knew everything u said but nv did practise much. I do try but when circumstances came in, i sinked into my own realm of self pity again. U said something like, alot of pple will regret after they have lose their precious one. This pt i strongly agree. But might not be referring to my dad. I never knew how to treasure u in the past. Honestly, I always compared u to my ex. Why u dun have this and dun have dat ? Somehow or another, it make life really difficult for us cos of my constant comparison. Im sorry... If i ever do have a chance, I would want everything to be re-do again. But its too late... This is truly an example of regreting once u have lost someone. No longer will I be hostile again or needy anymore... All i ever wanted is just an extra moment with u, hoping dat u will not push me aside.
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