The remark at FB seem harmless. But it certainly stir up an emotional twirl within me. I thought all would have ended with the last episode just happened a few days before. Yet, the few words written there sets doubts within me.
Is he over her entirely ? I tried to hold my emotions but still cun resist sms him. I explained my worries and anxieties and he tried his best to reassure me again. Apologised. Me accepted. Simple as that. Yet, right now I do not know if I am entirely sure he is over her. Then it brought back to me the memories while I was with someone else new a yr ago, my heart was still with someone who been with me for over 2 yrs. Will he be feeling that way too ? Will what I have be only his physical being and not his entire soul ?
As if it didnt add on to my insecurity, our boss called and told him he need to fly off again for 2 weeks. Cun help but vent my frustrations again. Since we started, he has to fly off every 2 weeks. Cun help but to term him my "fortnite" bf. This time, its the same too. We argued over his job matters again. Was it also my fault that I cannot understand he is someone who couldnt say no when coming to work matters ? Perhaps so. WHat I can really do rite now is just to treasure the 1 wk we hav left for each other for now...
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