Hmm... Quite a few things had happened since I last blogged. The decision was made. Once again, Im back into the dating scene. His hands seem so warm in mine, giving me the assurance the best he know how. An image of gung ho-ness, anyone would pass him as someone who is supposedly a bad guy. Yet, deep down within, he is the gentle being that touches me to the core. The kind of sweet nothings whispers and the efforts that he made for our future commitments fired up my once-lost confidence again.
However, as much as Im in the honeymoon period, I have doubts in myself. NOt of him of cos... But in myself... The past haunts me time and again. The fear.. The fear that tis r/s is another failure again. The fear that the past will happened again. The fear that he is once again depending on just infatuations/feelings. What happens if the feelings are gone ? Will he ever make an effort or decisions to rekindle that ? As i read a book recently, love is a verb. Love is a decision. It should nv be based on just feelings and emotions alone. Will he be able to understand that ? Perhaps Im just being unfair by saying all these now as time can only tell. I really hope tis time it can really bear fruit.
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