A gift long time ago...

This blog has been started a few years ago during this period cos of someone who will always be away in Malaysia during this period of time. This person loves to write blog and because of ultimate boredom during tis period, I decided to start this blog. A blog dat will pen down all my realistic feelings and emotions I ever felt towards something or towards him.

The irony is such dat all these changes within the last 1 yr. The blog I started for him will never be read by him anymore. Yesterday, as I cleared my messy room for this festive season, I came upon something dat once touched my heart tremendously. The turmoil of emotions flushed over me as I saw the most beautiful present I have received in my life. It does not cost much but it certainly means the dearest to me cos it was done out of love by him. As I read the birthday greetings from him, my tears keep flowing. Y does it still hurt so much ? I asked the Lord. There was again silence...

As I saw this present again, it dawned upon me that Im a person who never knows how to love someone. I had hurt someone who loves me so dearly a yr ago... Though I have forgiven myself and the Lord forgiven me, but this certainly tot me dat I nv noe how to love someone. Im always demanding, quick-tempered and taking for granted the love he showered to me before. Most absurbly, I chose to let him go for a flaw dat is causing him pain too. The past is the past, it can never be re-lived. From this, I know Im someone who is not worthy to love someone or even have anyone to love me back. I prayed dat he will always be living in happiness. I will put down watever dat is in the past n try to be positive and concentrate on my career cos I nv have to courage to love and be loved again.



The birthday gift dat I will always treasure...