As a christian, I have always believed in God's power and sovereignty. His miracles on others are always seen throughout the whole period of my life. Hence, I know He is very real. Well, my CGL once said that if a person always need miracles in his/her life, then he/she must be quite incapable to manage his/her life. I do agree to a large extent to this viewpoint.
But prior to that, the "me" now really need lotsa miracles to help me get out of the deep deep valley I've been in these 2 yrs. I really do understand what's the meaning of whatever can go wrong will go wrong. In fact, im so exhausted that sometimes I do have the notion of giving it all up. What's the point of trying so hard, being the best you can when others, which dun even have to try, can have all other things in the world. I am so alone at times, but does anyone ever knows that ? Does pple always have the notion that Sue is always so cheery and jovial that she doesnt have any problems on herself ?
Miracles, this word seem so far away from me. Perhaps it does happen to others but that person is not me... Can everything be right again ? Does anyone ever understand what I'm going thru ?
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