Unexpected

"He is getting married soon" These are the words that echoed throughout my whole weekend. My whole being broke down. Once again, I feigned a strong front in front of my fren who broke the news to me. By the time I reached home, its already 1 am. Yet, his words echoed through and through. I have always anticipated it and seen it coming. I mean, its been 2 yrs since we ended the r/s and 2 yrs he had been with her, I have also mentally prepared it as well.

However,the reality hit me harder than expected. The tears flowed non-stopped. Unexpectedly, I cried myself to sleep. I never thought I would ever cry for him again. I thought I had moved on ever since 2 yrs ago since I have 2 others after him. However, I was just fooling myself all these while. The love never leave me and it was deeper than I imagined. However, I know I ought to let it go totally. This day will come sooner and later. I wished them happiness in their marriage. Im really happie for them.

Now back at my workplace, I no longer feel any anger towards that jerk. Cos I know it doesnt matter, cos I know who is actually the one I loved most in life. Perhaps the deletion of his blog earlier has told me that it has totally ended many yrs ago. I ought to wake up. I also realised that telling my frens are futile. Yes, my dearies loved me dearly and I know they stood by me. But I really cun stand 1 fren of mine, CQ. This is the 2nd time she just said, Move on. Honestly, I was angered by her insensitivity. I know she is troubled by her own stuffs but this is not an excuse for insensitivity. Haiz.. For now, maybe I should hide from the world and go back to my own cave....