Hmm... Dunno how to start this blog cos there are quite a few qns pounding on my head. Cun help but think why does God do the things that He did ? OR was it just the devil trying to disillusion me ? Haha.. I certainly have no answer to that.Probably I was too sensitive lah..
How do I start ? Hmm... The story goes like dat: Yesterday, I was just tell Mrs Bong that I have finally gotten over E cos now Im quite sure abt my feelings towards another one. At least now I dun compare him to E anymore like in the past. He is certainly a guy that I must admit Im quite attracted to. But there is always the boundary... I shouldnt cross it again cos i wouldnt wanna let God down again as I climbed higher up in my role in ministry. Anyway, after I finished msning with Mrs Bong, I went to church anticipating a great leader's meeting like the week before.
Hmm... Tink chinese have a saying " dun speak abt the person in the day". Cos last nite I chanced upon E, not once, not twice but four times ! 2 of the times, i cun help but feigned ignorance. Though I did really see his car coming when I was about to cross the road. And yes, the 4th time was even amazing. Once again, as I was in GS car, I knew that he is somewhere very near. ANd the nxt second, his car appeared.
At that moment, I cun help but wonder what is God doing ? Trying to test me whether my words to Mrs Bong are true ? I seriously got no ideas. But 1 thing i know, though there are certain sublimal link btw E and me, its nv the same as before and it will nv be (which Im glad). And God is a God of new creation.. Surely old things have past away and rite now, I just need to be mindful of things that are spiritual and of cos enjoy this time with this guy who keep making me laughs.. :)
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